terra viventium

listening to: megh jhorana by tishma 
(welcome to my current reconnection with my culture)

for the first time in a long time, i feel really good about life and really on top of things. and i’m not just talking about school, i really feel like i’m capable of integrating good, solid habits into my lifestyle. i haven’t missed a day at the gym that i told myself i was going to do the night before. i’ve been to breakfast almost every day. i haven’t woken up past ten any morning since i’ve been back at school. and i also thought taking five classes would be overwhelming this semester; but i’ve been keeping up with my work so well that i never feel like i have too much to do. i’ve been pleasantly busy at a consistent level and have always had something to do, without feeling like i had too much on my plate. i think that i’m really becoming capable of creating balance in my life, without neglecting any particular thing that i hold importance to, whether it’s school, friends, my health, or just time to relax. 

i feel like an adult, and it’s not scary.

listening to: marching bands of manhattan by death cab for cutie

i had such a successful shopping day today! i needed to get some serious clothing staples, like PANTS, which have been lacking in my wardrobe for the longest time…and although i didn’t end up managing to find legitimate jeans, i did find a wonderful pair of knit pant leggings. which kind of brings me back to my days of “jegging girl,” but these pants are so glorious i don’t even care. they’re a forest green color, and fit so nicely and are the most comfortable things i’ve worn in a while. and when i was checking out even the girls at the counter ran to snab a pair for themselves because they were so great! gap, you never let me down. i also found a great sweater there, kind of drapey and with a cool pattern, and sooo comfy. the material feels like heaven and i’m in love. i also went to forever21 and emerged with a single item, this mustard colored grandpa cardigan with three big wooden buttons and two pockets…i saw it the last time i was there and vowed to return for it if i was still dreaming about it a week later. i was, so i went back for it, and i’m so glad! one of the greatest purchases of my life.

in addition to those, i of course checked victoria’s secret for their semi-annual sale and emerged with some goodies, and then hit up target for my fave black leggings and cosmo because let’s face it, a trashy magazine is the perfect way to finish off a shopping day. 

tomorrow i’m going to providence to see allegra and get even more shopping done! i’m trying to be good and only buy things that i have on my mental list, so we’ll see how that goes! i’m also getting my ears pierced so that’ll be an adventure! and obviously i’m dying to see allegra because i haven’t seen the girl in what feels like ages and i miss her terribly. so excited to make the drive down!

listening to: moment for life by nicki minaj

tonight’s late night activities include sitting on my couch and watching whatever comes up on tv. so far that’s included i am number four, the end of scream, friends, and currently, i’m divulging in reruns of that 70s show. 

i wish i had something to do this weekend….all of my friends are either gone or busy. christina’s in california for her internship, maja is celebrating the serbian christmas with her family all weekend, and well everyone else i like has either already went back to school or are too far for me to try to get together with them. being sick has made me so lazy which is a shame. but i do feel like i’m getting a little bit better which is one of the first good things that’s happened over break! 

i miss college and being with friends :( all i’ve done the past couple weeks has been sleeping my days away and hacking up my guts. i’m ready to be better and be with the people i love!